I know it has been awhile since I last posted. To be honest, nothing exciting has happened. And I am perfectly fine with that.
But things aren't always normal right? On Christmas Eve, Dave and I were out doing our last minute shopping. While we were at Target he received a call from his mom. I could tell right away that it wasn't good news. His eyes began to tear up and he started to walk off. I ran after him calling his name, but he just kept talking on the phone walking away from me. I finally reach him and see that he was crying, and all he said was "mom has cancer". I froze in the middle of Target on one of their busiest days. I asked him if he wanted to leave, he said no we were in the middle of shopping he asked me to give him time and to finish the shopping. It was not that easy. I tried to find an aisle with no customers just so I could have a good cry.
Since she was diagnosed the doctors said she had a pretty good outlook. She was in pretty good health (for just being diagnosed) and would just need to take it day by day. She sounded great too! This made us feel so much better. Dave was even going to go to Minnesota for a couple weeks to help take care of her, but she later called and said she was doing well, and didn't need him to come up.
Our plans were to go see her this summer. She seemed to be doing well and the doctors were pleased with her health. We knew that it could change any day, we just didn't want it to come so soon.
Yesterday Dave's brother called and said that she has taken a turn for the worse and now doctors don't know exactly how long she has. We spoke to her tonight and see a significant change. How can she go down hill so fast? But in reality we have seen it before with mom, and grandma.
Judy is such a sweet woman, with an big heart. I am so sorry that we never got the chance to have a relationship and I think if we lived closer it could have been so much more. When Dave and I married, he kept telling me "you know you can call my mom, mom"? But I refused, I told him that I didn't feel comfortable calling someone else mom since I had lost mine. But now I regret it. Why did I have to be stubborn, my mom would understand.
After hearing this news tonight and speaking with her, we are going to try to leave to see her this week! We have a lot to overcome, but really want to try.
Judy we love you so much. We are sorry we can't be there with you now, but hope to see you soon. Thank you for being the amazing person you are, and raising a good son, who loves his mom so much.
"Everybody in this life has their challenges and difficulties. That is part of our mortal test. The reason for some of these trials cannot be readily understood except on the basis of faith and hope because there is often a larger purpose which we do not always understand. Peace comes through hope."
--James E Faust